There is a moment in our lives that we are in a "Y" intersection and we need to decide whether:
1. we Trust God in what He chose to do, no matter if we agree, or like His perfect decision, or
2. We can decided to let our emotions control our faith, and walk away from God's plan. And, sadly, some may even walk away from God.
It is not wrong to be sad or even angry, in moments of loss, but what we do with those emotions is what matters...
In times of trouble, as almost in every day decision we make, we have a choice to believe Him, and Trust in his wisdom as He makes the decision around our life, or if we will be in control of our own future.
Yesterday, a very dear friend went to be with the Lord, she was just 29, has two precious children and a loving Husband. We prayed, and prayed, and prayed so more for her to be healed, the Church was united in faith for her healing, and Yet, our Lord decided to take her Home with Him.
Oh boy, did I cried. I miss her already, I miss her smile, I miss all the talks we could have had the next years, I got confused, I didn't understand God's decision, but I decided to summit my emotions, my confusion and my Trust to God, and in His divine mercy, He reveled to me some of Himself, and His grace to the ones we are left behind.
In the first chapter of the book of Ruth (from the Bible), we learned how first Naomi, then Ruth and Orpah became widows, at that point Orpah and Ruth had an option... a "Y" moment...to returned to what they believed 10 years before, to look and go back to their previous families, or to move forward with Naomi's God, with the new identity they got, continue to be part of God's people, or to let their emotions control them and go back and out of God's ultimate plan.
Orpah went back, but Ruth declare God to be her God, to trust in the mist of her pain, to keep moving even when she must have disagreed with God's decision, to not look back even when it seamed acceptable to do so.
Well in the mist of this verses I found myself, and just like Ruth, I will pick up myself (or must likely let Him pick me up), and decide to move forward, even if I don't understand, I know God sees Eternity, and I only see 80 years. He sees spiritual purposes, I see physical plans. So, I SURRENDER, so I can see through His eyes, I can bring my feelings to the feet of the cross, where I know I am understood and loved.
And I know that my God is a good God, a merciful Lord, that takes care of widows and orphans, as He did with Ruth, My God will be my friend's kids "Mom", My God will provide comfort for them and Her husband, and in a blink of an eye we will see her again in heaven, Until then, I am in peace to Know that God is in control and not me.
In loving memory of Christen Ringle.
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